Precious Moments

I only have a few minutes to blog here, so bear with me if this seems somewhat disjointed, though I have a strong suspicion most people think I always am now that I'm in school (touche).

A quick update on my whereabouts, for friends and any potential stalkers in the mix. I cannot begin to explain how overwhelmed I am with musical input. I fielded many criticisms and pleas for me not to attend my school, but I can look every one of those arguments in the face and tell them proudly they were wrong. Now, they were right in that one gets out of it what one puts in to it, but if practicing a minimum of three hours a day is putting in, then I'll be just fine. No joke, I can sit at the piano for three hours and still have so much left to do. My problem used to be that I never had things to practice; now there's no end in sight. Sometimes I'm not sure if I should laugh, cry, or lay there paralyzed by the weight of all I need to accomplish.

If you know me at all, you'll know that there's been one thing my whole life (other than that nasty demon "procrastination") that has stood in the way of me and success in any area, and that thing is my social nature. I love being around people; it's very hard to turn down invitations. Because of that, last quarter was certainly an adjustment, but I think I've effectively gotten over the "need" to see people and I'm really focused on my investment in music. If I'm allowed to pat myself on the back, I'm doing that right now. Last night, for the first time ever, I was practicing scales and I realized how much I love my instrument. I really love the piano. Everything about it...the sound, how complicated and complex it is, how beautiful and dissonant it can sound...everything. It was then that I actually felt like a real musician...the kind that could spend hours with their instrument. I've always wanted to be one of them, and I think I'm getting there. (I'm smiling as I write this if you can't tell. :)

To all those who haven't seen me or really have any proof that I'm still alive, I will see you in a little over a year. :) Only, now I'm actually considering jumping in the deep end of linguistics as soon as I leave this program. I want to be trilingual at the very least, and I think I'm going to pursue that as soon as I'm able. I'm definitely learning Italian more fluently and I think I'd like to learn German, Russian or Hebrew after that. Not sure which. I love learning; but I also like being out there in the world, so if I can somehow combine being in school for the rest of my life and living in the real world, I'll be the happiest girl ever.

Speaking of being a girl, I'll be one year shy of a quarter century old in 11 days! Agh. Life is catching up to me. There's so much I want to do and I feel like I'm getting too old to do it (sorry to all the above 30's, but this is seriously how I'd understand if you knew me...I'm just like that.:).

This time of year is always full of reflection for me. Not only is it the beginning of a new year, but it's also the beginning of a new year. lol. In other words, it becomes a new calendar year very close to the time of my turning one year older. So I'm quite introspective this season. I love it. A new year...we'll see what it has in store. I have a feeling this is going to be a very good year full of many new responsibilities, obligations and challenges. I'm up for them. :)

And if you've read this far, you're a better man than me. Hey, I miss all the posts...not feeling loved here people!! Am I not writing about important enough stuff? Should I write about more trivial things? This isn't super cathartic or anything for me; I like interacting with people. Tell me you're will be your birthday present to me. I'm cheap. :)

Posted by Portia at January 14, 2005 03:36 PM

I'm glad you're doing so well. I'll have to go to Beacon now so I can see your sweet piano skills for my self.

Posted by: Nick at January 14, 2005 04:44 PM